Thank you, from the bottom of my heart, for all the beautiful comments and e-mails you sent after my last post. I don't think I can accurately express how deeply your words comforted me.
Blogging about decorating is a funny thing. I write a post about a room makeover, and I look forward to seeing my reader's comments. "Love the lamp," "that rug makes the room," "beautiful color." Readers type their feedback quickly and go about their day, and probably don't realize that their words make me happy, bring me a smile, a validation, and motivation to keep blogging.
I wasn't sure I should write about losing Sadie. I was feeling terribly guilty about her death, and as silly as it sounds, I think I was suffering from some level of post traumatic stress disorder.
But, boy am I glad that I let it all out on the blog! Not only was writing about her therapeutic, but your shared experiences, kind words and prayers really pulled me out of a dark place. I joked with my sister that she was my grief counselor, and I had to call her every day for a therapy session. We marveled at all of your sweet comments... how so many of them made us cry, but how all of them were so understanding and compassionate.
Although "thank you" doesn't quite express my appreciation, I am so grateful for your comments when I needed them most.
I've gone through some crazy emotions in the last month... guilt, sadness, anxiety. Then I became obsessed with checking petfinder.com and the humane society website for a dog who needed us NOW. I came very close to adopting a 13 year old retired service dog. But, I think God intervened and thought to Himself, "let's slow this crazy train down," because I am finally feeling at peace to just leave things alone for awhile. When the time is right to bring in another four-legged friend, we'll know. I hope :)
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Hi Carolyn. I am so sorry for your loss. I was brought to tears when I went back to read about Sadie. I have a pup myself and will be so hurt when she leaves us. Even though a dog may be a pet they are still family. You care for them and love them just the same. Hang in there!
ReplyDeleteCarolyn, your words are so poignant. And true. Blogging can be a blessing and really truly touches people's lives.
ReplyDeleteI am so glad you posted something because I will tell you...everytime I saw your little box on my blog panel, it gave me a little knee jerk about your precious dog.
I have thought about my favorite picture many times still of her in the bubbles and wondered if your family is ok yet?
Time is your friend and so is blogging! Have a great Wednesday good to see you back!
So glad to hear from you, Carolyn. Praying for your family's continued healing.
ReplyDeleteWishing you a Happy Thanksgiving from our home to yours,
Barbara
Oh Carolyn, I am so sorry that I didn't see your Sadie post and respond appropriately. Actually, after seeing this post, I went to read it, and stopped mid way because the tears were falling so fast and hard. I am so sorry for the loss of your Sadie. I know from experience that a dog can quickly become a huge part of your family, as you can see by the post I just submitted on my blog. Again, I am so sorry for your loss, and definately will say a prayer for all of you.
ReplyDeleteSo glad that you are finding the will to move forward now and have gotten over the shock of your pets death. I know you will always remember her! She is alive in your heart. Take your time to decide when it feels right to take in a new dog. It will happen when it's right. So glad that blogging was an outlet for you and that your sister was able to help you too.
ReplyDeleteglad you were able to get some comfort from the comments we left....anyone who's ever had a dog knows how hard it is to lose one and all of the complicated emotions that go with it..... sending you peaceful vibes!
ReplyDeleteCarolyn, Somehow with all that has been going on around here I missed your last post. My heart aches for you and your family. I know what it is like to lose a pet. We lost our last one unexpectedly 3 years ago and I have not been able to get another to replace her. I just don't think I have one more "loss" in me.
ReplyDeleteGod bless you and don't try to replace Sadie too quickly because that sometimes doesn't work out either- Just rest and God will bring you the perfect pet at the perfect time. xo Diana
Oh Carolyn! I am so happy to hear from you. You have been on my mind and my husband even asked if you had posted yet as I read about Sadie to him. Your post touched me so much as it was filled with so much love. My Murphy has been getting some extra love as it is so easy to take her for "granted" in the rush of everyday life. Still thinking of y'all and sending prayers your way .
ReplyDeleteGoddess, so glad to see a new post here. I have missed reading your words, and am so glad you are doing better. Love you! Roberts.
ReplyDeletejust read your blog post about your beautiful dog Sadie... thru the tears I could tell that your animal was well cared for and loved. The grief is real and your post expressed it beautifully...
ReplyDeletewishing you peace this holiday season.